I See God in You

God has put a special person in my life. I'm not entirely sure how long God intends for him to be in my life, but he's one of those people. One of those special few who, at the point in your life when you need it most, daily exemplify God to you. Last night, I shared some rather painful things with him, and instead of judging me, showed me the love of Jesus through his own words an actions. Instead of seeing me for who I was, he seems me for who I am becoming and can be through the power of God. Instead of seeing all the ugly and choosing to dwell on that, he sees the past for what it is and looks at me through the eyes of Jesus. His words, "I see so much in you and I don't think you do. You're amazing, you're beautiful, and nothing will change that." Isn't that how God looks at us? When we give ourselves to Him, and lay all of our burdens and ugliness at His feet and let Him see how worthless we really are, He looks at me and says, "Daughter, I see so much in you that you don't see. You are amazing, you're beautiful, I love you and nothing will ever change that." I said to him last night, "Thank you for not running." And you know what he said? "Thank you for staying." Isn't that exactly what Jesus says to us? When I give Him all the ugly stuff and I'm still amazed that He loves me enough to not abandon me, He says, "Child of mine, I'll always be here. It's you that would walk away. I'm so glad you decided to stay in My arms. I'm so glad you are choosing to remain in My love."

After my conversation with my friend, we decided to take a few minutes to pray individually. As I was praying, a voice said to me, "Love one another as I have loved you." I finished praying and got on the computer to look up where that verse is found (John 15:12, if you want to know). As BibleGateway.com loaded, I glanced down on the page to see what the verse of the day was. And it was this,"For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord."(Romans 8:38-39)

As I was sharing with my friend that God had said to me, "Love one another as I have loved you" and that I had opened the webpage only for God to tell me how much He loves me. As I was typing he was typing at the same time. He hit send a few seconds after I did. In his IM, he told me that a friend had IMed him while he was praying and that her first words were this, "For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord."- Romans 8:38-39

Let us love one another as He has loved us. And how is it that He has loved us? He loves us to the utmost.

I wonder, I wonder if you really knew, that I see God in you
And I wonder if you can see, how much you mean to me
I know you cannot read my mind, but I hope you feel my vibe
I think its time I let you know that, I see the God in you

Be my Builder

"Except the Lord build the house, they labour in vain that build it....." Psalm 127:1

Have you ever tried to build a card house? You're gently placing the cards exactly where you think they should go. Everything is perfect as long as you keep an eye on it, but as soon as you turn around, it falls! And then, your big brother comes along, and shows you up.

Have you ever tried to build your own relationship? You work at it and work at it, but still it only falls. That's happened to me many times.

I want a home. I want a family of my own. Not my parents and brother, but I want to be the parent and the wife. But the psalmist tells me that unless I let God build that house for me, all my labors are in vain.

Father, I trust you to build my dream house. My beyond-my-wildest-dreams dream house. You have all the tools necessary, and I'm signing the contract.